The past week I’ve spent applying and interviewing for jobs, which has kept me from blogging. The job hunting process can be utterly depressing. Not only is it hard to find work in a bad economy, but having nude photos and sex clips all over the Internet hinders the process as you can imagine.

Last year I was fired 3 months into a job because management found out about my involvement in the adult industry. My employer said my work in the company was “superb” but couldn’t take the risk of clients finding out about my past. Would they care? Maybe. So the company let me go even though this was years ago.

I understand the reasoning, but I wish people were more tolerable. I don’t want to be a label forever. I want to be able to move on with my life on all levels. I wish someone would take a chance on me for my professional (non-sexual) talents. It may sound ridiculous and impossible. I know that having a past that entails fucking on film hurts my credibility as someone who can be taken seriously. I can’t change it though. It happened.

I want to be a writer, but that’s not always a career choice. It’s more of a dream I hope to accomplish one day. Right now, I just want to land a steady paying job in my field. How does a girl overcome a past like mine? Where are the companies that allow ex-adult film stars to work? (It’s almost comical sounding. LOL)